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life span and rhythm likely speedier and more frequent when its near year's end. today i here wrote my 3rd post within weeks about my life, to accompany family recent photos shot when we dine out in a buffet. ema and I scheduled it for months, back to when i got a bonus of ￥100 from QRRS, likely for the International Journalist Day, for I once worked as crew of the cable TV branch of the company. baby just recovered from his recent heat, likely God just let him staying home to prevent the evil grandma to steal my inner clothes. He got heat in Thursday night, then stayed home for 2 days otherwise should join his kindergarten till weekend. in the Saturday dawn, i dreamed of my girl Zhou visited me, just when the evil grandma's dirty cold lingered on me in half-woke. I then had a good time with my girl Zhou, i search on the web for so long, till dawn light baptised me. then i got up earlier than usual, and be the first got up among family members, to busy on my cyberspace business. baby son while woke up urinated in quilt, first time he does and let his mom in fuss. its a special moment for me, for its my first time meeting my beloved in semi-consciousness and made love. but i didn't wet myself for we, my Royal of China, never home-stay in profaned situation.in the buffet, i treated myself lots of coffee, after enough meat. its also my first time dining in western style, ie, with fork, knife, and spoon. i quite enjoy it. when i went to fetch my favorite food, i mistakenly took a plate to load some porridge, i at once was remind of the hard time in western history movie when people ate soup from sallow dish. ema correct my mistake. i later ate lots of porridge in cups. that's really delicious. amid the dinner, ema complained my full and no appetite to later dishes, i reviewed the buffet, and imaging the open kitchen of google. SIGH, when google's office kitchen can prevail the world likes its better than free services! when working people enjoy open and free buffet li

this is a unexpected post, for latest post just days ago. however, baby recently had a haircut and a bath, which delayed 2 weeks for his heat, too wonderful to miss, just amid the second snow of 2009 in this eccentric northeastern China city. this week i finally got my google wave, a powerful real time collaborative online publish tool. there r already bulks of talk about the breakthrough the google new service brought, but in my view, its a kind of tool let everyone readily and easily setup a personal forum or chatroom. its really helpful, esp. for a Chinese, who is used to limit their opinions or intimacy within small private groups or forums. that's why in China forum ran so long and still a main social media for most of Chinese Internet users. the freak of China authority also likes to see the limited spread of information as well as public opinions, felt safe trapped them in forums which mostly close and membership required to join communications there. the most popular instant message tool, QQ, also set many limits one can own a group, and the size of the group, and needless to say the backend harsh keywork censorship and event logging for the police. its a long time when i waiting for my google wave, but its too soon to see it grows into ripe. the speed of communication on Internet likely turns more concurrent, google wave surely shown the trend, but still its public page/url based allow more solitary and worthwhile consolidation of knowledge and its improvements. looking into its future, i really feel quite bright. it rightly paves the gap between blog and instant message, results into a moderner publication media. last week is a more or less miserable week, for i in 2 or 3 days busy in office, where the shit monitor absent for his father-in-law bought a new house, and took him there to help decoration, so the corporate lan wire he occupied can be adopted by me. so i missed waiting and saluting to the tall girl likely newly employed by QRRS, my once a

its now golden season here in northeastern China. bright sunshine in most days, and warm&crisp air conveys the golden bliss. i enjoyed pc games more and more with baby son, who rightly a savvy gamer, and insatiable entertainment sitter. every night when i lay down on bed alone him and his mother, i just feel too precious a day it was. i hold his bear and smooth foot, and amazed by God's glory. but now all things so bright. the China authority resolved to challenge the common sense. quite some lames supposed the tighten surveillance will loose after the special period of National Day march, but it was not the case in this year and this time. the loser broke the mind, doomed to farewell to its once appealing, doomed to separate China with the world, peaceful people with the docile. the Internet censorship turning more and more harsh and smooth most free mind and good wishes Chinese hold so far under the faked forged socialism. these days my pc os was hacked, or my web traffic under arbitral filtering. my web traffic never overlap 90KB/s, since yesterday the grandma clean the house and i also at the moment refurnish my os with common software's update. in last 2 days i tried lots of way to make clear what's wrong with the lagging and sometimes unstable Internet traffic. but most of my works led lighter to the endeavor of hidden dark hand over my os and my account or audit or filter in my Internet ISP's router or network hardware. net neutral, a purpose pushing in US, a far cry and forever utopia for Chinese in Socialism dome, just like its doctorate died decades among the bloody red starred geopolitics. but i know world aligns to change, including the dying China mainland, as God promised me, as the Empire in my title and host from hundred years ago from my glorious ancestor. China determined to change, since the history of the world. the dying sin let to supervise the scary land in these years, was ordered to leave now. a brighter sky encompassing the land emerging

the vacation of China National Day and lunar Mid-Autumn Day, almost passed. baby son, warren zhu, and me, benzrad, enjoyed larger and newer games which can drive my new acer AS 4736G to its full load, beyond wilderness. i also made good use of time when i was left with baby alone when his mom attending her school, to let baby son know more God and the mission of our Royal of China. i also condemned his mother and her family a lot. also a lot of time wasted attending games' download, which very lagging. we just found the beauty of larger pc games, like "Frontline: fuel of war" and "call of duty: modern warfare", both larger than 4 GB, which cost me for 2 and more days to download from p2p. i tried "Frontline" with baby son, who also been attracted at once, but later baby son ditched me and follow his visiting uncle's playing with it, for the uncle more a veteran on games. he was asked to come over to break my intimate time with baby by baby's mother, who likely felt my talk and my critics with baby upon her when she absent. these days in vacation really sometimes ignite my sex desire. i longing for my girls a lot. but i sure seeing God consoles me with our promised gathering with all my beloved in coming months. i saw God let me endure to lighten the coming elation of new life. i promise all my girls of my full heart, with full fruitful. its a gloomy morning. i don't fear the spying eyes from China surveillance. i saw budding like spring rains, weak but insistent. i saw blessing of God like warmest and brightest sunshine, killing and healing. i saw my promised love like rains rampant and torrential.   View allGet your own From baby son, warrenzh's works baby's work. From My second notebook, an Acer AS4736G my second notebook, her membership of my family since Aug 28th, 2009. From Life as it extends an early full moon near lunar Mid-Autumn Day. View allGet your own Home| Linkbook| Album| iStream| eCard| Profile

these days mostly sunny days, with warm air and enlightening sun ray. this week i enjoyed my working space a lot: with twitter updates in view, and instant message of most accounts ready at fingertip. what's most exciting, i got google voice for 3 family google accounts, in the cheat of American user. even now i don't have a single friend outside of inland, i still felt quite contented with the powerful tool google offers. i in view the day China united with the freedom world in borderless clearly. i envision China can be a interesting and respectable partner of the fruitful Christian culture.also we got quite some social sites interwoven. i finished the needed authentication to let post to my facebook, twitter via 3rd part tools, like seesmic or brizzly, both too nice to miss. i see its quite right to make full use of this kind of posting against spying eye from day to day harsh China surveillance. the world of cyberspace merging into coherence while China authority tries all its means to separate China from the world democracy, Chinese to global citizen.this week we less gamed, for after experience so many breathtaking large games, baby son and me both loathed to try less interesting games, or small games. but a recent release, "De blob", attracted him 2 nights. he gamed it alone. we also picked his favorite game, "Cloudy with a Chance of Meat Balls", we made progress in once dead lock in another large game.its a peaceful warm winter afternoon now. i didn't saw the tall girl in QRRS for 2 days, in the rush time of QRRS, my once and long time employer, a state-owned enterprise. last time when i shown my salute from my office window, she abrupt cut way to the other side of the road just under my window with her female companion. i see its a signal of her loath of waiting and being watched. the coming 2 days i busy in office, missing the rush time people's flow outside of the lane. i really don't intend to do anything, i trust God to bring me my beloved. and by the w

From Family&folks âˆ' hometown journey benzrad, me, in hometown journey, on front yard of his passed dad's house. family entertained in a nearby river soon after reunited. baby bathed in warm Autumn dusk. baby son bathed in warm Autumn dusk from be21zh on Vimeo. OR if vimeo inaccessible under censorship visit it hosted on Flickr: From life as it extends 3 days before the day i left my hometown, village Zhudajiu, where i lingered for 3 months,and lives here my baby's mother's home for 3 months. life quite regular between my office and baby's mother,emakingir's house. i routinely stay in office for 5 hours, from 8:30am to 2:30 pm. in office i rip off Internet access and had to find other things to kill time. first i used roommate's Internet access when he absent, but the demon with a born spying eye trying to bargain with me payment for the usage, so i now totally stay in office offline. mostly i can immersed in reading ebook, esp. biographies of scientists, or sorting my hard disk, enjoy the plenty of warez and ebooks got from web.anyone really love the web can't praise the boundlessness of evaluable resources, most of them can gain by download. that lesson exactly the American people, who enjoy booming of information explosion since the descending of Internet, teaches me, and leads me to deep faith in God's saint and meaningful.i learn God from US people and their well beings. since the first day i rejoin the office life, i remind myself being idle in office can be a beneficial experience for my mission, for the road of God over China needs time to clear unclear and bias. and according to most Chinese living standard i shouldn't rely on the speediness and expedience of Internet on finger tip. and my threat to the China authority nowadays can't be hidden by the peace so far i enjoyed. so i decided to enjoy leisure of mind as well as bodily in office where most staff wasting the resourceful Internet, doing board games, readin

Posted by    benzrad zhu  to  benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly... Embedded media -- click here to see it. baby son bathed in warm Autumn dusk from be21zh on Vimeo.    baby just haunted outside with his grandma, while i busy with posting his recent paintings, as well as my recent photos.then his mother bathed him even there is a boy student receiving ema's tutorial here. i dislike ema don't pay attention to privacy but God shows me it doesn't matter.its a warm Autumn dusk, bright and dry sunshine through the window of our balcony cast a loveable and moving family peace in the house.   Ps: i also just got showered in public bathroom. a nice weekend. visit this album on google picasaweb . View this post » Leave a comment » View allGet your ownView allGet your owntags:life,family,baby,son,bath,love Home| Linkbook| Album| iStream| eCard| Profile

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these