its now golden season here in northeastern China. bright sunshine in most days, and warm&crisp air conveys the golden bliss. i enjoyed pc games more and more with baby son, who rightly a savvy gamer, and insatiable entertainment sitter. every night when i lay down on bed alone him and his mother, i just feel too precious a day it was. i hold his bear and smooth foot, and amazed by God's glory. but now all things so bright. the China authority resolved to challenge the common sense. quite some lames supposed the tighten surveillance will loose after the special period of National Day march, but it was not the case in this year and this time. the loser broke the mind, doomed to farewell to its once appealing, doomed to separate China with the world, peaceful people with the docile. the Internet censorship turning more and more harsh and smooth most free mind and good wishes Chinese hold so far under the faked forged socialism. these days my pc os was hacked, or my web traffic under arbitral filtering. my web traffic never overlap 90KB/s, since yesterday the grandma clean the house and i also at the moment refurnish my os with common software's update. in last 2 days i tried lots of way to make clear what's wrong with the lagging and sometimes unstable Internet traffic. but most of my works led lighter to the endeavor of hidden dark hand over my os and my account or audit or filter in my Internet ISP's router or network hardware. net neutral, a purpose pushing in US, a far cry and forever utopia for Chinese in Socialism dome, just like its doctorate died decades among the bloody red starred geopolitics. but i know world aligns to change, including the dying China mainland, as God promised me, as the Empire in my title and host from hundred years ago from my glorious ancestor. China determined to change, since the history of the world. the dying sin let to supervise the scary land in these years, was ordered to leave now. a brighter sky encompassing the land emerging

the vacation of China National Day and lunar Mid-Autumn Day, almost passed. baby son, warren zhu, and me, benzrad, enjoyed larger and newer games which can drive my new acer AS 4736G to its full load, beyond wilderness. i also made good use of time when i was left with baby alone when his mom attending her school, to let baby son know more God and the mission of our Royal of China. i also condemned his mother and her family a lot. also a lot of time wasted attending games' download, which very lagging. we just found the beauty of larger pc games, like "Frontline: fuel of war" and "call of duty: modern warfare", both larger than 4 GB, which cost me for 2 and more days to download from p2p. i tried "Frontline" with baby son, who also been attracted at once, but later baby son ditched me and follow his visiting uncle's playing with it, for the uncle more a veteran on games. he was asked to come over to break my intimate time with baby by baby's mother, who likely felt my talk and my critics with baby upon her when she absent. these days in vacation really sometimes ignite my sex desire. i longing for my girls a lot. but i sure seeing God consoles me with our promised gathering with all my beloved in coming months. i saw God let me endure to lighten the coming elation of new life. i promise all my girls of my full heart, with full fruitful. its a gloomy morning. i don't fear the spying eyes from China surveillance. i saw budding like spring rains, weak but insistent. i saw blessing of God like warmest and brightest sunshine, killing and healing. i saw my promised love like rains rampant and torrential.   View allGet your own From baby son, warrenzh's works baby's work. From My second notebook, an Acer AS4736G my second notebook, her membership of my family since Aug 28th, 2009. From Life as it extends an early full moon near lunar Mid-Autumn Day. View allGet your own Home| Linkbook| Album| iStream| eCard| Profile

these weeks a bit busy, for the freedom world offers so many invalueable stuff. in these weeks, my family sites continued to expand, now including delicious accounts, which now support yahoo account's automaitcally login; tumblr blogs, which so powerful while so fit; seesmic, a twitter client can help me bypass the deadly blocking of twitter from China surveillance; and tweet.im, an autoposting service binding with gtalk account. i also seeing family site expanding within demestically, including 139.com, an affiliate of the monoply company, China mobile, and dii.cn, a twitter clone with neat interface. since yesterday, i felt i should preserve family 2 new namespace, riveryog for me and warozhu for baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China and God of universe, with facebook, the best and largest social network. China surveillance likely blocking facebook's sms service within its sovereign, for i tried several mobiles, none can receive facebook's verifying code in sms. i tried to reach out a Taiwanese among my google contacts, but his mobile also can't receive my facebook's verifying code. these weeks mostly sunny days. with God's beam, i like to fly at will. China surveillance blocking more and more famous sites, including google sites, goole apps, tumblr, hellotxt, posterous, and yahoo meme, but i was never daunted, each time i lose an open voice channel, i would try to compensate with new reach out to more brilliant western world sites. God's message never fade, or wind-gone, but populate springly. i enjoy seeing my future people voice here now, a missing treat for my loneliness i suffered so far in this eccentric corner of northeastern China. i enjoy the virtual team in God's shine, upon every directions of the globle. its also mostly lightened days, with so many games. baby son made every free moment gamed on my new notebook with my companion, imersing in games like "frontline" or "call of duty". play games is my long time dream, esp. when i saw quite less informe

From Family&folks âˆ' hometown journey benzrad, me, in hometown journey, on front yard of his passed dad's house. family entertained in a nearby river soon after reunited. baby bathed in warm Autumn dusk. baby son bathed in warm Autumn dusk from be21zh on Vimeo. OR if vimeo inaccessible under censorship visit it hosted on Flickr: From life as it extends 3 days before the day i left my hometown, village Zhudajiu, where i lingered for 3 months,and lives here my baby's mother's home for 3 months. life quite regular between my office and baby's mother,emakingir's house. i routinely stay in office for 5 hours, from 8:30am to 2:30 pm. in office i rip off Internet access and had to find other things to kill time. first i used roommate's Internet access when he absent, but the demon with a born spying eye trying to bargain with me payment for the usage, so i now totally stay in office offline. mostly i can immersed in reading ebook, esp. biographies of scientists, or sorting my hard disk, enjoy the plenty of warez and ebooks got from web.anyone really love the web can't praise the boundlessness of evaluable resources, most of them can gain by download. that lesson exactly the American people, who enjoy booming of information explosion since the descending of Internet, teaches me, and leads me to deep faith in God's saint and meaningful.i learn God from US people and their well beings. since the first day i rejoin the office life, i remind myself being idle in office can be a beneficial experience for my mission, for the road of God over China needs time to clear unclear and bias. and according to most Chinese living standard i shouldn't rely on the speediness and expedience of Internet on finger tip. and my threat to the China authority nowadays can't be hidden by the peace so far i enjoyed. so i decided to enjoy leisure of mind as well as bodily in office where most staff wasting the resourceful Internet, doing board games, readin

Posted by     benzrad zhu  to  benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly... Embedded media -- click here to see it. baby son bathed in warm Autumn dusk from be21zh on Vimeo .    baby just haunted outside with his grandma, while i busy with posting his recent paintings, as well as my recent photos.then his mother bathed him even there is a boy student receiving ema's tutorial here. i dislike ema don't pay attention to privacy but God shows me it doesn't matter.its a warm Autumn dusk, bright and dry sunshine through the window of our balcony cast a loveable and moving family peace in the house.  Ps: i also just got showered in public bathroom. a nice weekend.visit this album on google picasaweb . View this post » Leave a comment » View all Get your ownView all Get your own Home| Linkbook| Album| iStream| eCard| Profile

ema suggested to haunt Lun River after all her pupils left. i hesitated but couldn't let baby alone. so we together launched. in the river baby really had a good time! he enjoyed the water so much! i kept on shot. neighbors likely including some evils and dogs surveillance us. one of 2 men babbled and claimed too brutal, just let us know. God sees the beautiful scene! for youtube banned in China for a long time, i had found other video hosting site to post my video of baby playing in the river. so i found vimeo, and registered some family frequent accounts. but this moment access to it unstable, China surveillance likely dog chasing after us and ruin any way i can make use of. however, this video is available, as vimeo email to report me this message. the dark over China Internet sky really sick and thick nowadays. i bet its resolved with the collapse of dictation in China, the dogged land and my vested kingdom from God and my ancestor. view our happy moment with water in Lun river of Heilongjiang, a tour of an hour bus from ema's house, aside the city of Qiqihar. http://www.vimeo.com/5830120 the same movie hosted on flickr, shorten for the site's limit on length of movie. http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=71377 http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited#5364025922584177570 http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited#5364024672350407250 visit recent album including our happy time in Lun river, at google: http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited bye, all my beloved, time left for us is bounty while words between us is peculiar. join me my beloved, sooner the better.  1 of 3 Home| Linkbook| Album| iStream| eCard| Profile

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these

the thunder storm descended twice in 2 days. its appearance very shocking and terrifying. endless thunder, echoing great sound, and heavily rains. i love the rain very much. it all began after my baby bird left my sight and join her family who got her again after the baby bird likely fell from its nest. neighbor wife told me and i caged her. after fed her 3 or 4 times, she still struggle to leave the cage so i release her and watched till her parents join her.
God bless my bird, who so smart and cute. these

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yesterday is a cloudy day first, i busy with reading and blogging. after noon i quit from notebook and dozed awhile on bed. when i missing years in Nankai Univ., where i met Masheng from heavenly, it drizzled, outside of my surprise. in the night i sms exchanged a lot with a facebook friend girl, who from Guangdong, south China but now study in Shanghai. it later turned into a love letter. the rain continued all night. in the mornign today i continued to ask the girl about my love and possible marriage. she

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old time, past time, gold time. i forever cherish it. i witness the God in this family, in this world.

old time, past time, gold time. i forever cherish it. i witness the God in this family, in this world.

old time, past time, gold time. i forever cherish it. i witness the God in this family, in this world.

old time, past time, gold time. i forever cherish it. i witness the God in this family, in this world.

old time, past time, gold time. i forever cherish it. i witness the God in this family, in this world.

old time, past time, gold time. i forever cherish it. i witness the God in this family, in this world.