April- told with the greatest respect, I hope.
Below is a condensed version of my experiences with Chris, and particularly the last. I tell the story with the greatest respect for her, and out of respect for her. She was such a great influence on me that it doesn't seem right that I should keep this story to myself.
Without further ado:
April
In order to tell this story with the respect it deserves, I must state that there were good times before the part where the real story begins. Before April 3, 2007, it was paradise. Life was good for me, and I didn't think it was going to turn upside down that quickly. I'd known since January 23, 2007, that things probably were not going to work out the way I would have liked them to for Chris. She had fought a courageous three year battle with cancer.
I had only known her for eight months when I became aware of the fact that she was not going to make it. As far as the signal, there were three words: "I leave now."
Her English had been perfect until that point, so that was when I knew. Trying to hide it was difficult, the way in which I said "OK" must have given something away....I'll never know now, of course.
Time passed, around two months, and I'd forgotten about the gut feeling I'd had that evening. I logged into the messageboard where Chris and I used to communicate most of the time on the evening of April 3, 2007 at 11.00pm.
It was then that I read the words I'd dreaded, the words which started me shaking, as I had not done before. I got up and tried to walk across the room, swiftly deciding that getting up was not the best idea.
At that point, my faith was tested to the limit, the spirituality I'd found through Chris and her hardships desperately needed for me to stay the course now.
I drank a cup of hot, sweet tea, in order to quell the shaking and combat the shock- first time I'd ever needed assistance to do something like that. Later, I lay in bed chanting the Hare Krishna mantra, when I'd shortly before uttered the words: "If it has to be this way, then