Look into my eyes - you will see What you mean to me Search your heart - search your soul And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for You know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into your heart - you will find There's nothin' there to hide Take me as I am - take my life I would give it all - I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love And no other - could give more love There's nowhere - unless you're there All the time - all the way
Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more I would fight for you - I'd lie for you Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
Merry Christmas everyone. To be honest…it doesn’t really feel like Christmas. I think I’m just still a lil’ lost out here. Tina’s sweet. She’s cooking Christmas dinner tomorrow for her fam. I’m here cleaning up. My fam celebrates everything tonight and does the in-law rounds tomorrow night. It just sucks that this really should’ve been the first Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Years we would be spending together but…y’all know what happened.Now were both maintaining until that day in Feb. It’s still freaking hard. We’re doing little things, like watching movies together and chatting and talking and texting (shut up rod with the awwwing :P) and just doing what we can to maintain. Bryan Adams - (Everything I Do) I Do It For You
It’s been a long, hard time being away from Tina. I’ve finally got my phone back on…it had been off for four weeks and that was hard. Only getting to hear her voice maybe once a week, tops. When I was used to talking and texting her every day…but that was just another bump in the proverbial road.
And if you’ve been reading the blog, you know that I’ve been planning my trip back to LEX on Valentine’s Day…unfortunately…it’s looking really bleak right now. That really sucks so much too. There’s nothing I want more right now than to be with Tina…but right now…I just don’t have the funds together to get back there and make sure what happened last time didn’t happen again. I don’t want to rely on anyone else…cuz y’all saw what happened last time. I never want to take that same trip to the airport ever again. Never again. Not like that.
I just really didn’t want to disappoint Tina. I had promised her…back when I first got back from LEX that I’d come back to her by Valentines…and fuck…I don’t think that’s going to happen with how the funds are right now. Right now…I’m gonna do nothing but stack…and we gotta figure out where we’re going to stay when I get back there to her…cuz I can’t go on too much longer without my other half. I miss her. I miss you Tina. So freaking much. I do. I miss you and I love you and I can’t wait to have you back in my arms.
SotD is from Robin Hood starring Kevin Costner and Morgan Freeman. Epic Bryan Adams song that I’m sure i’ve added to the blog before but it’s fitting today because we watched that movie just a little while ago. Beautiful song for my beautiful Tina.
Bryan Adams - “Everything I Do (I Do It For You)”