I was bored. Watch macross frontier again. I wish i can use my com again. Then i can online 24/7 and watch anime. Aimo. Such sweet melody. Whenever i hear the song, i got flashbacks of the past. I was wearing slacks, tied up my hair. He was on my right. His hair grown and he was wearing his red and black spects. He had the song playing faintly through that time. Walking at the park. He hold my hand and pull me closer. I was weakened by his smell. And then, he kissed me. I was stunned. Really. So slowly i pulled away. It was awkward. When we found a spot to sit, we kept quiet as aimo is still playing at the background..surrounding us. And i pluck up courage to kiss his cheek and then it all started.


Is that love or lust? I remembered him telling me that if he wanted to leave, i am to play this song. As this song will remind him that he loves me. But now.. it's a different thing. Aimo will just be a song. I'm sure he harden himself up that's why we're in this situation. Whereby he'll only come to me when he need warmth. Maybe.. he still have feelings for me. Well a tiny one. But i know he'll just keep it to himself and prevent things for happening. Maybe i'll just do the same. Telling myself that i have no feelings for him and what ever happened back then is just lust. But i really hate the idea of pushing away my feelings. And most probably, he's not feeling what i'm feeling. I kinda know how he feels. But he keep changing. Whatever it is, a facade might help.